I haven't spoken much of James here and will at some point. To make an extremely long story short, he is my precious nephew who passed away at 19 months due to a genetic disorder.
Last night I had my nieces (James' sisters) ages 1 and 3 over until 9:30. When they left, I put my two youngest in bed and headed into my room where Dan had a heater cranking and he had left our personal DVD player on the bed while he went to work. I curled up in my nice warm room, watched a girly movie, drank a pepsi and cocooned myself in quiet time.
I woke up this morning to a sunny beautiful day feeling refreshed, more me and ready to take on life again. I needed to just step back, relax and take a break.
Today is crazy. It's my brother in law's birthday and then a surprise party for my mom. My mom has done daycare for 27 years and every year on her birthday I invite all her daycare families, past and present, over for a party. Well, today's the day. It was supposed to be tomorrow but she went and made plans! She's really making me work for the surprise this year.
So, I am off for a day in my wonderful crazyville life!
-Heather
aww. that is sad. i understand how past grief can creep up years later and smack you in the jaw. i understand that. and walking it out isn't at all easy.
ReplyDeleteyou're doing great!