I Miss Her...Already

I put her on a plane yesterday. That was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Last time, it was me getting on that plane, and leaving for two weeks. This time, she did it. I felt bad, because instead of being strong for her as she boarded that plane, I broke down in tears. She was strong for me.

I like Amanda. I thought you weren't supposed to like your teenagers. I was a terrible teenager, I know my mom didn't like me very much. I was mouthy, rude, selfish...I could go on, but you get the picture. Amanda has her moments for those, but 99% of the time she is kind, compassionate, loving and extremely funny!

Friday while riding in the car with her, I realized that we really enjoy each other. I am definitely the mom, but part of me is her friend too. We love the same music, she makes me laugh constantly, we can talk and sometimes, she's the one encouraging me.

I am thankful for this relationship that we have. I am overwhelmed at the thought that she is now 13 and in 5 short years, she will go on to live her own life and dreams. For now, I will cherish her and the young woman she is becoming. I am in awe of the God who created her and chose her as my daughter. I cannot deny that she is perfect for me, and I, am hopefully perfect for her.

I am counting down the days, she will be home on the 28th!

On a little side note, I am using my pink zip it purse! Yes, it has my wallet, camera, keys and hand lotion in it! I am ashamed to say I have lost my keys about 4 times..and, they were in the purse. The sad part, I had looked in the purse. I guess the purse is not my solution to loosing my keys!

-Heather